Well today was interesting when I went to church today the Brown family was there to "sing" to the church members. I found out that my "friends" at church were more interested in the fourteen year old son and the twenty year old son than the message and the music and the violin compositions that were so powerful. I found myself slowly becoming nauseous and wanting to vomit more and more. My boyfriend thinks I'm some kind of psycho or something because I keep getting locked in a closet.